the girl i mean to be

i need a place, 

where I can go

where i can whisper what I know

where i can whisper who i like

and where i go to see them

i need a place

where i can hide

where no one sees my light inside

where i can make my plans and write them down

so i can read them

a place where i can bid my heart be still

and it will bide me

a place where i can go when i'm lost 

and there i'll find me

i need a place

to spend the day

where no one says to go or stay

where i can take my pen and draw the girl i mean to be

"the girl i mean to be" - from The Secret Garden (musical)

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I love The Secret Garden. My obsession began when I was little when I watched the 1987 Hallmark version of The Secret Garden so many times that the VHS tape gets fuzzy in the places where i fast forwarded (Mistlethwaite Manor is scary at nighttime!)

I loved the book and subsequently loved all the other movies.

At the bridge between my middle and high school lives I found out they had made musical. I quickly devoured the soundtrack- I know it by heart. I used the piece above to audition and get into a 6 girl a cappella group at my high school. 

So you can see my obsession is quite all-encompassing. Okay - the reason for the Secret Garden post is because I was trolling around on etsy today and I got sucked into pretty lockets and necklaces and one thing led to another and I started seeing keys and lockets together and it made me think about "the key! it's the key to the garden!" and now I'm determined to find a necklace that is awesome with both a key and a locket as well as some other trinket involved. Here are some of the better ones I saw. 

It can be found here.

Close to what I want - but no locket. Very much a "secret garden-y" key though :D 

It can be found here.

Locket but no key - this one feel very Victorian and very Secret Garden/ a locket Lily (Colin's mother) would wear. So pretty :D

It can be found here.

This one has the two elements I want (plus some Athena/Owl references) but it doesn't feel just perfect.

Perhaps I will just make one myself....

Pretty keys can be found in abundance here.

Well now you know. So beware - if you hear a girl singing Secret Garden lyrics or has a penchant for crappy old Hallmark movies about girls finding gardens in England (or who has a pretty new key and locket and garden something necklace). It might be me! 

^_^ 

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